Motivation

Believer

Some people go through alot of bullshit, they learn dont's and do's in life.

I'm one of them, because I'm always trying to make my self believe that there is a miracle, something that can heal me inside. I can say thats why I'm not sure about my feelings, I can't decide if I can ever love the person, trust them, or give them another chance, and when it coems to attention is just the same feeling it feels too fake. When someone says nice things to me it takes me back to the past, where I had and felt fake people around me all the time. I was so different back then. I can't let anyone come close to me, because I'm too afraid of getting hurt again or showing them how destroyed I'am inside.
I have to hide it all the time, and I hate telling anyone how I feel because I love to show my strong side, as they see your weakness they will pull you down.
I have so many people around me, but I don't let anyone close to me, and thats what makes me feel lonely when I'm down. I'm scared to even tell anyone how sad I feel. I can cry all night long and still not tell the person what the actuall reason is.
There are times that even a tiny thing can make me so sad, because it's a big problem in my eyes. I just want to believe that I can change this side of me one day.

Respect

Not everyone understands the actual meaning of 'RESPECT'.

The person dosen't need to be older than you so you can respect them.

Respecting someone means giving them the love or care they deserve, but nowadays people find it hard   to do that. I believe if someone forgives you for a reason, they give you the chance to change what you've done to upset them, they give you another chance so you can make everything better, just because they have forgiven you, it dosen't mean they forgot about how you broke them in peaces...

Even saying sorry nowadays dosen't mean shit! They say sorry but noone realy means it, because they choose to do the same mistake again..

IS DEEEEEEEP! 

Your using the persons kindness as their weakness, how are they suppose to trust someone again?

They are not stupid, they are just too kind! The only bad thing they can do to you is wish that karma kicks your ASS!

They always say forgive but don't forget! 

But from now on I'll Not forgive and won't forget, just simply erase you off my life!

Heartless

Another Post!!!

Wasn't sure if I really should write this post after a long time, but yes decided to as I didn't get no sleep because my head is busy making decisions and was busy thinking all night long. Bloging makes me feel better so I'm just going to do it !

I don't know if its only me who feels like this but I actually hate this side of me I can be so careless and heartless that I end up hurting and uspeting people! Yes these are the people that care the most about me, who are always there for me. Is a big problem but I can't change I just hate showing my soft side no matter if its just saying I love you or seen someone cry on front of me! I always have to fight this feeling deep inside I'm fighting with my feelings. They are telling me to just go ahead and show how I care but my body wouldn't do it!

I don't show it then at night it eats me inside because I know it was wrong I push people away obiously at times I can be nice but most of the time I jjust can't do it feels so hard. :/
I'm making a big mistake because life is way too short, I don't want tto regret after, I just simply have to learn how to show my feelings and understand that theres nothing wrong with that!
I can only blame my past for this because I learned not to show too much and not to give away alot of love because I know I would end up getting hurt, I believe as a girl you sometimes have to hide your soft side but it's cool to show it to your loved once which I can't :/ But from this time on I promise my self to change because I need this big change in my life in order to keep positive!

Day In The Life

Weird! Bestfriend!

Trust

Trust is one important things people need in order to love, like, get on, relay, care and live with each other :)
It's really true isn't it?
One of the things I hate about myself is that I trust everyone quick when I say everyone it includes the closes people such as FAMILY and 'TRUE FRIENDS'..
When you trust someone you think you can tell them anything, you literally go blind because you'll never think that this person will do any bad shit behind your back! NO THEY CAN THEY WILL THEY WOULD.
Let me give you a sad real life example..
Well these people think I'm dumb and I'm stupid..
When I broke up with my ex and I had feelings for him I always used to go and tell my cousin so she can give me dvice and I can feel better :) Hmm not a good idea realising now.
ANYWAYS I recently find out that these two did shit behind my back like trying to get together :| I mean are you that sad? I come cry to you and you know how upset I am and you use this to flirt with him? When I found out she just tells me a different story, like she dosen't tell me what acutally happened but makes up a lie.. But they say everythign happens for a reason and I believe that, if I didnt stay over her house last week and didnt go through her text messages randomly I wouldn't have seen the message from my ex saying 'It didnt work out'! So then when I ask her thats when she decides to tell me the truth? Girl do you actually think I'll believe or trust you again or him? Thank god I have a lifeee because this bullshit kills LOOL... DEAR EX AND COUSIN you'll probs see this but don't be angry you can still do ya thing :)

But I'm just saying don't trust anyone seriously you never know the little devil inside someone if you have a problem and you need to let it out I'll say don't tell anyone but get a pen and paper or BLOG like me to lett it outt :D